3.30.2009

across the Universe

I've talked about this on my blog before (uh, probably my other one), but I wanted to mention it here.

Have you ever run into a person that looking at them seemed such an intimate gesture that it felt as if you were standing in a the room completely naked?

I have never had anyone explain proper that feeling when I share it with the person I was experiencing it with or other more knowledgeable individuals in those kind of mystical things. I've only had that kind of contact with three people, one of whom was a total stranger and I actually spoke very little to. The other two was to an ex (and it was actually years after I'd not been dating him.....years...like a decade...or more...) and the other was an english teacher in college.

So of the two I talked to, the feelings were mirrored as well. The ex was happily re-married and just as shocked as I. But not knowledgable about those things either and probably chalked it up to 'good chemistry'. I'm skeptical about that explaination.

The second was my college English teacher and he was actually very gay, a Kabbalist, and had no clue what it was (but I simply adored him!). At least, we never had enough time to discuss it. He actually bought me a copy of The Mystical Quabbalah by Dion Fortune (yeah, I know I spelt it different twice, but there are so many spellings for that dang word). But confessed that he felt that same kind of instant attraction/spark/feeling. We didn't know what to call it either.

I don't just buy 'good chemistry'. I don't think it was entirely a physical connection. We're low on pheremones and winding up to really be diversified creatures.

It is not a sexual thing, but there IS an intimacy involved. People say the eyes are the window to the soul, and when they looked at me, it was as if I was pushed onto a stage, naked and laid bare for all the world to see.

Past lives just don't cover it. Any takers on this one?

1 comment:

DEBORAH REUTELER said...

I have heard several theories on the subject. One theory is the alternate universe theory where these people are actively involved in our lives. Another theory is the past lives theory where these people where connected to us closely and we still feel that instant vibration.

I have had this happen to me more than a few times. The last time it happened was how I met my fiance. I had just put up a myspace page to help publicize my writing and I was randomly paging through people on myspace inviting people to check out my writing etc. Suddenly I spotted this picture and everything went into what sounds like a roar in the air, this happened a couple times before I don't know how else to describe it. Then after the roar, I felt this instant need to know who this person was. I made a comment on his blog and literally paced all day waiting for him to return my message. I never heard from him but checked his page literally daily trying to know everything about this person. Finally after weeks of this cyber stalking (LOL), he wrote a message on a bulletin that said simply, "I'm bored, come talk to me". I of course jumped and msged him right away and we talked all night. About 3 weeks later he IMed me and asked me to marry him! We met in real life about a month after that, and then he moved cross country to live with me two months after that. That was a year and a half ago and we are completely in love and planning our wedding. All that from an instant spark with a picture that somehow ignited that spark from the millions of other faces....